|Seeing the Light in darkness.|
This past Sunday’s talk: “With God as your carrier, you’re never dropped” lead me to reflect on depressive thought. Because, even in the midst of a depressive thought, I’m never dropped. No matter when, why, how, what, or why, God is always within me.
Looking back at my youth, I remember spending a lot of time alone with my huge imagination, my thoughts were my company. Even in college, spending time alone at the beach was heaven. I loved being alone and never thought anything of it. Then in my mid-20’s I started to notice an unhealthiness about it. Though never clinically diagnosed, it appeared to take a form of depression. I started to rely on my huge imagination to convince myself to get out of the house. It seemed to work, however, I thought of depression as something inside myself that was not welcome, it was a bad thing.
After many years of cultivating Spiritual awareness, a revelation came. The same power in my mind that has the ability to create thoughts of depression is the same power in my mind that has the power to create thoughts not to be depressed. I took all the teachings I’ve had and looked at depression in a new light. Depressive thoughts may be something inside of me. What if I honor that part of me? What if I greet it, acknowledge it, and let it know that whatever it is, it has no power over me? The reason is my connection in God. I know God and I are One, I know prayer & meditation work, I know all that I need is within me. With this knowledge I am comfortable with personality traits within myself. Depressive thoughts can come and go; I acknowledge them, bless them and send them on their way or use them in a creative purpose.
In a conversation with ‘Silver Linings Playbook’ author Matthew Quick , by Patrick Ryan.
Quick states, “If I didn’t have depressive episodes, I wouldn’t be a novelist. When I wrote this book, I had been living in my in-laws’ basement for two years. I was unemployed and felt very alone. I hope this book helps people feel less alone, too.”