Today I noticed that I was really happy. I was not happy for a reason. I was simply grateful to be who I am, where I am and doing what I do. I found myself singing under my breath… in the back of my mind. It wasn’t a profound song, but it was a joyful one. “Zippity-do-dah” I always like to sing happy songs when I am happy. Being happy and singing are natural, normal expressions of joy! It occurred to me that I had finally come home to myself.
That may sound weird to you because it even sounded weird to me. But when Spirit whispers Truth to you, you know it. I knew it. I was experiencing a Divine moment.
Nothing has happened or come about to cause me to feel so joyful. It was simply a natural experience of life. It is what life is supposed to feel like. It is what I have felt for the majority of time since my spiritual awakening, forty years ago.
To tell the truth, I did not know I had not been feeling like my true self until I felt the authentic moment of being Heather Dawn Clark. I felt grateful, blessed and happy.
So now I look back and start gathering up all the clues along my path that I had been “out of my mind.” I see that I have been judgmental, distrustful and fearful, mostly about myself. I realize also that I have been creating drama and playing the victim.
I apologize. It was unconscious of me.
For any of you who have been praying for me to awaken to the powerful truth within me — thank you.
I want to live with a smile on my face and one in my heart. I have so much to be grateful for!
I want to live in gratitude and generosity… to see the world through God’s eyes.
I want to stay connected to Source, remembering that it is only in my faulty thinking when I feel separated form It. I am bigger than that. You are bigger than that, too.
It also helps me to be physically active. It helps me to connect with people, ones I know and ones I don’t know. For instance, today I went to the grocery store to pick up eggs. I parked and started to get out of my car. A woman was coming to get in to her car which was parked to my right. She glanced at me and I asked her if I had parked too close to her car, if she had enough room to get in. She declared that she had lots of room, that I had parked perfectly! It felt good to have a moment of connection. Earlier in the day, I had arrived at my step aerobics class to find that my step had already been set up in the spot I prefer. My friend who had done it, had then disappeared to work on some strength training. In my right place in my aerobics class, in my right place in the parking lot, and in my right place in life, God is great all the time!.
My question to you is are you at home in yourself?
